I've been following Kara Tippetts www.mundanefaithfulness.com through her journey with cancer. She's an amazing writer. She speaks of dying so beautifully. I never thought that was possible. Her blogs have reached me in places of loss and hurt with losing my mom to cancer almost 3 years ago. I'm reminded of the beauty of heaven and Jesus in all the hard places as well as the good ones. This last part of her blog a few days ago made me think of my grief after losing mom and all of the questions I had. I was filled with emotions but mainly anger and sadness. The only thing I could do was just keep searching for Jesus in those places because I knew I couldn't do it. I was basically throwing my hands up saying "I've got nothing! I have no explanations. I have no answers. I have no peace. I've got nothing!" But I knew who had all of these things and I knew He would rescue me, He would father me, He would mother me, He would give me hope and He would always love me. He became every part of my day. I could feel grace, hope, joy, peace, forgiveness, and all of these amazing gifts pouring over me. He gave Mike and I Waves of Grace. There was a time when I believed nothing good could possibly ever come out of my mom dying of cancer. But He works all things together for good. Romans 8:28. He wasn't just going to leave us with mom dying. My sister, Julie, became a mom. My sister, Ang, started a fresh new journey in AZ with her family. Buddy remarried. Mike and I are raising our kids under the oak trees. Mom is certainly missed every day. But I feel her more each day in a different way. I used to be scared I'd forget her voice or her hands. But I get to see beautiful visions of her that I've never seen before in giving beach trips, in my new niece and nephew, in the strength of my oldest sister adventuring across the US to AZ! There are still things I don't completely understand but I'm not fearful, sad, or discouraged. I'm excited and hopeful to see how God will use them for good because He will. I've seen it!
"Maybe I’m on a journey, and the journey is more beautiful than any of us can comprehend. And if we did understand, we would hold very loosely to one another because I’m going to be with Jesus. There is grace that will seep into all the cracks and pained places when we don’t understand. In the places we don’t understand we get to seek. And how lovely is one seeking truth. Stunning." -Kara Tippetts
Go where you feel Jesus, where you feel called even if you're unsure how it's gonna work out. Most likely, it'll be better ;) He's gone before you and He's got this. Love this song.
Beautiful
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